Thanks neva for the post. I couldn’t sleep last night, kept waking up. Hubby is sleeping much better with the new medicine. I did get away for a few hours yesterday and it did help. But I woke up realizing that this week was a tough one. Hubby only worked 6 hours this week and he is starting to go down mentally and physically. He couldn’t remember a women’s name who has lived in our condo complex for years. He kept on calling her Jackie, and no Jackie has ever lived here. When I said her real name, he still didn’t remember, I could have said any name. He was in a angry **** again yesterday and refused to eat. It is soo hard to see someone you care for deteriating right in front of you. I am taking care of everything now, him, our finances, house, cars. It is overwhelming. I pray for God to help me have the strength to get through this and not lose my mind. We see the Dr. again in 2 weeks and I am asking for him to put the order in for hospice. I think I need help. I did feel like gambling and to be honest, I want to gamble right now. But I don’t have the money, and I know it is just a fast fix for alll the emotional stuff I am going through. It is not the answer! Today, I need to get a new battery put in the truck and it ***** a reall good cleaning. I need to ask anyone out there that has been in my situation (with Hubby’s health). Did you ever feel resentful of the situation? Sometimes, I just want to get as far away as I can. I am not going to gamble today!!!Seize all the good things in life
