Thanks Cat for your post! I am keeping busy and get counseling to help me deal with my Husband’s death. I think that when I am alone, I start reliving my Husband’s illness and the day he ****, over and over. Sometimes, I can feel him everywhere. I need to do something when I feel depressed so I will not gamble. I am going to my Mom’s this weekend. We are going to spread my Step-fathers’, sister in law, and my Husband’s ashes. I have found a beautiful place, which is kind of isolated and the view of the mountains (tipped in snow) during the winter is awesome. I think it is the perfect place. It is going to be hard as I already have butterflies in my stomach thinking of it. When I was at the casino, I kept thinking of my Husband, sitting at the bar having a beer and watching some sports game. That is what he liked to do. I just want to find some peace within myself. I think that it will take time. I am trying to find my way. Seize all the good things in life
