Sad, I value what you have to say and I didn’t take it as being preachy!! I did walk to the mall today but only made it to the grocery store. I did get some exercise, which is what I needed. I was talking to my Mom this afternoon and started crying about my Husband again, I miss him! I received mail today telling me that his employer had received the benefits package that I mailed on Monday and that they converted our health insurance into my name only and that they were expediting his monthly pension check for me. That was good news!!! This is hard being without him. I am getting through everday with support from people here and the hospice support groups I attend, and friends, and family. I know it will get better with time. Seize all the good things in life