Thank you for your wonderful words of support, and Bettie, I’ve just done what you suggested! I got up at 6am and paid bills until I had just enough money left for some food and fuel for the week! I feel good about it, and quite a bit relieved as well. There is of course a niggling fear that I could blow this few bucks and end up with no food, but one day at a time, eh? I have found some casual work, so will have some income dribbling in for a while at least. My plan is to GET RID OF THE MONEY as soon as it arrives in my account. My mortgage hasn’t been paid in 18 months, so that, and the credit cards are about to get a boost (I hope). Bettie I’ve started reading your story on your thread – what a wonderful girl you are – lovely to have met you.
Colin, thanks for your thoughts and encouragement. I am planning to go to a meeting in the near future for GA. I don’t go to AA as I am not really a drinker, but I have a friend who does, who is providing me with some support at present. She says if it’s difficult to get to GA (which it is) I could go to AA as an alternative.
Micky – thanks for talking to me – I will look at your thread today. When I read in your post to me that you are starting to enjoy life again, I was reminded about what Larry said to me in his post (above) about "coming to" – and learning to live a normal life agin. This is what I am working towards. It sounds like the world is starting to open again for you, and three cheers for you!
gracephnx
