Hi Amyyy. WooWoo! One Month! Way to go! I am so happy for you!
I have to give your bf a good amount of credit for trying to remind you about your triggers (ex. boys going back to school.) It’s good to have someone supporting you and rooting for you.
I totally agree with you about how gambling reaffirms our negative feelings about ourselves. Like a self-fullfilling prophecy. Even when I did something good, something I could be proud about, I would run off to the casino. And then I would be miserable and hate myself for doing it. Have you done anything to build your self-esteem? I cannot remember whose thread I was reading, but in it there was a comment about how gambling is only a symptom of what’s going on. Sure we can quit gambling or we can work on quitting gambling, but if we don’t work on what caused us to become gambling addicts in the first place, we will never be able to recover. This is something I really need to work on. I am seeing a therapist (I’ve only gone to one session so far, because he’s been real busy with the holidays) but I can’t say I’ve done anything else to work on it. I think I’ll google: how to build one’s self-esteem and see what I get. If there’s anything good, I’ll let you know. Take care and keep up the good work!
