Hi everyone
I been off the bet for much off this year
Was tempted a few ***** last month
I remember in the height of my compulsion when i join GT a year ago.
I would feel compel to rush to the casino after work and even got many nasty speeding tickets on the way there.
Last month i had a day off work, and felt urge to gamble, to experience that thrill again
I drove to the casino, this time without speeding.
Got to the parking lot, didnt get out of the car , said a serenity prayer.
Then voice inside asked me "did you really need this?"
"do you need misery?"
call it my HP, or God or whatever you believe.
I answer "no…no I didnt"
The casino will also be there, will stay open 24 hours, to temp us.
There is no need to feel compulsion to gamble.
So after that i felt this internal peace.
My mind was settled and my heart wasnt racing any more
I start my car and drove away from the casino
The rest of the day I enjoyed it with my friends and family.
