Hi Larry, just wanted to thank you for your thoughtful posts on my thread and also RG’s. Closing my thread and ending it with words I don’t really believe was impulsive and not one of my shining moments. Of course, I know my prayers and those of others, who so generously offer theirs, are not wasted. My statement…Don’t waste your prayers..God has better things to do..came from my place of self-loathing and unworthiness. Self-loathing is a heavy load to carry, but I intend to lighten it one gamble-free day at a time. The prayers and support given to me on this site help to lighten the load, too.
Thank you, also, for the link to a guide for working the steps. I think it will be very helpful to me, as I like to see things in writing. Honestly, until last weekend, I hadn’t really paid much attention to the 12 steps or saw a reason to work them. After my experience with Steps 1 and 3, I see I was wrong, and I am eager to work through the guide. Willingness. Although, what happened to me was a revelation. Steps 1 and 3 occuring simultaneously, but the experience had nothing to do with reading or working the steps. Perhaps, being in a place of hopelessness led to the realization of my own powerlessness, which led to just the right prayer..that of complete surrender. A release followed by relief. I was just so tired of that struggle you described in my thread. I thought I might just try giving the whole thing up. Let go and let God? I think so. Anyway, I am still processing a lot of this. But, I kind of feel like I found the Golden Ticket, and I am eager to use it in solving all my problems! I am so grateful to you, Larry.
