Originally posted by paul315 to razzabelle
… I find that posting such thoughts to others is better for me than to post all on my own threads, so thanks for the opportunity and use of yours. Journaling and sharing problems is good for us no matter what venue we use, but my choosing one different than my own I know is another trait that I need to look into; hopefully it is more to benefit from third party "therapy" than some type of denial or facing the truth head on …
Good evening all,
I find it strange that I am posting to my own thread for the second time in just a few days, but like I mentioned to Razz in a reply to her, my not posting to this topic often is "another trait that I need to look into". And the best way to look into the matter is to copy that part of my post here. I also mentioned to her that I knew that some of those that knew me better might be more appropriate shoulders for me to lean on then her being so new; most of the "old timers" that I am talking about (especially, but not inclusive, Bettie, Carole, and Reds, since I have met them in person and feel a little closer to because of that meeting) might be more apt to read my post here, so I am sharing my thoughts and feeling with all of you in a more direct head-on way.
Originally posted by razzabelle
Thank you for the words and thought provoking post …
Good morning Razz,
Your post has given me "food for thought" too, thanks for your thought provoking post … … …
… But the real reason that I am posting to your post and am writing this is to build the courage to do what I now have to do as a result of gambling again; something that is extremely hard and carries much more regret and deeper feelings than "yuck", than having to juggle finances to pay a few bills and have a little "food for nourishment". This month I do not have any money to send to my daughter and now have to tell her and her mother that I gambled again after three and a half years of being gambling free. I could lie to them but that would not help me any, it would only give a false and selfish instance of saving face, something that always backfires later on and adds to any mistrust that might exist.
I find that posting such thoughts to others is better for me than to post all on my own threads, so thanks for the opportunity and use of yours. Journaling and sharing problems is good for us no matter what venue we use, but my choosing one different than my own I know is another trait that I need to look into; hopefully it is more to benefit from third party "therapy" than some type of denial or facing the truth head on. I know that you are new here, and that some of my older friends here could be a more understanding listener, but your post was the one that opened my eyes and causing me to take actions that i need to follow through; again thanks. … … …
God’s speed. Stay strong. Keep posting and sharing, "a problem shared is a problem halved"
Larry
Thanks to my Higher Power, My 3G’s – God, GA, and GT, "Day Two Is Another Day Behind" and with the help from all I hope to continue to remain gambling free.
LarryThanks to my Higher Power, My 3G's – God, GA, and GT, "Day Two Is Another Day Behind" and with the help from all I hope to continue to remain gambling free.