Dear Larry! Thank you for posting on my thread, as I do appreciate your words of encourgement and wisdom. I know that gambling was not a healthy response to the intense pain I was feeling that day. It didn’t give me any relief, other than occupy my thoughts for a short time. Like I said, I didn’t recognize that it was the first death anniversary with me working recovery, and it blind-sided me. I did not think at the time there was anything to be learned through the slip, but it has taught me to be better prepared for the next time Ron’s death could trigger the pain of our childhoods. I wish there was GA close by because I would surely go. I wish I had a sponsor. I wish I didn’t have to drive four hours for counselling apointments. I know these are things I can’t change. But I am thankful for you and the others who support me on GT, without which I would have no chance of recovery. When say I will try harder, I mean I will be more prepared for huge trigger times. Carole
