Very frustrated right now. I feel like my head is going to blow off. Its thumping and it is not being made any better by the other person in this house. Wheres all the money? Why arent we in a better financial position? Looking at me with accusing eyes. Im sick of explaining myself, im sick of being made to feel its all my fault. I am 9 months gamble free today and i didnt need this crap. I was feeling wonderful. Nothing like a dose of reality to send me back down with a thump. Thanks for making me feel like a piece of s**t once again.
Thank god im going to Jodies tonight, i cant even look at him. How about he gets off his money ignoring a**e and do something, how about working with me instead of planning to spend spend spend. Yes, its all good for him until it affects him. He wonders why i dont talk to him about it, cause when i do this is how it always ends up. Why bother. I am totally drained now. This used to send me running straight back to the casino to make more money (what a joke). Not today though, this recovery is for me, and no matter what is said, im not going back there.
Kathryn xxx
Sometimes you have to step outside of the person you’ve been, and remember the person you were meant to be, the person you wanted to be, the person you are.– 11/03/2010 8:07:55 AM: post edited by kathryn.
