Good Evening Everyone,
i have been having some computer problems this week that have prevented me from being here as much as i would like to. I am up late, well, early actually, its just after midnight for me and im up with coffee and toast.
Its hot tonight, so hot that i cant sleep. I just rolled over and my arm touched my husbands arm which was absolutely freezing. I thought the poor man was dead and just about shook him off the bed i got such a fright. Needless to say he wasnt impressed hence me sitting here writing this post.
Ive had a busy week, i worked 10 days straight, which nearly kills me. The tuesday after easter we are off for 4 nights to our little yearly holiday. I cant believe just how much i feel i need it this year. I am soooo tired. To be honest, im tired of being tired!
My one saving grace is that i havent had any real urges to gamble. I feel i have learnt to live without it in my life now. Although i know i cant ever return, i am at peace with that and feel no desire to do so. Complaciency will always be in my mind, i think being honest and open, not soemthing that everyone can do but something that is important to me helps my recovery. I am not embaressed or afraid to say i am a compulsive gambler, to anyone. It is part of who i am, a very small part these days and my recovery is worth a hell of a lot more than any embaresment i may feel saying that i cannot/will not go to a gambling venue. If they dont like it……too bad, they obviously arent my friend or anyone i need to worry about.
I hope that you are all doing ok, wherever you are in your journey. Dont give up. I do finally feel that perhaps now i can change my profile signature, because i am living. Finally.
Take care,
K xxxx
To live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan
