Dear Kathryn,
I cried again when I read your reply to my post. I am amazed that even through the nightmare I had lived for so many years, especially the last three, I would be able to be where I am now. I finally realized that I cannot change anyone and I have let go even thinking I can. I accept what I cannot change.
I somehow woke up Sat with a new way of thinking about my father knowing he usually calls me on this day. As I have said in my post, I told myself I will not acknowledge his gamblling again. I wil lnot mention it and instead I will just enjoy my father as just my father. It was something I never did before yet it was what I needed to make peace with how things truly are. I cannot hold grudges because of his gambling. It doesn’t matter anymore as long as it doesn’t effect my life. My position of no enablement will always stand but again I am trying to not even think of that.
I do remember when you posted about your father and it touches me now as you mentioned it as it did then. You have always be such an inspiratiom to everyone here. I believe your father is watching you, proud as he could be, seeing what a wonderful daughter he has.
Love,
Twilight
(I believe we get our greatest strength from the hardest obstacles)
