Geordie and Paddy, thank you…it was great talking to you both this morning.
So yes, today is my 2 year anniversary, and although it is really just another day gamble free, it amazes me that i have had 2 years of gamble free days! I am proud of myself, proud of how far i have come, in saying that, i also know that it is a life long journey, that i need to work my recovery every day. I am not so cocky to believe that i am cured, i will always be a cg, and i am proud of that, because it has made me the person i am today.
Without the support i have recieved here i doubt very much i would be writing this post. You have helped me when i needed advice, you have lifted my spirits when i have felt down, you have made me laugh, made me cry, and to each and every one of you i have spoken to, who have posted to me….THANK YOU XXX To have contact with others who have been there, who are living it, who have family members that are cg’s, i have taken something out of each conversation, each post, that has kept me going.
Ok, so thats done!!!
My conversation with my husband seemed to jolt him into action. He has been brilliant, and this has reflected onto me and on to the boys. I really dont think he realised how i felt, how unhappy i was, and i think he is really trying. Which is all i can ask for. As for me, i am also making an attitude adjustment, after all, if he is willing, then so am i. I am also ensuring that i make my feelings known, no more bottling up for me, and this seems to be helping too. We are talking more, which of course, is so important in a relationship.
I am going to a party tonight, my friend is 40 and is having an 80’s dress up night. I have my outfit ready to go, which is a hoot, and my boss is going to give me a spiral perm with her hair tongs, i had curly hair from 1986-1992, so its only appropriate that it makes an appearance. It should be great fun and i am looking forward to it. Dames has gone away for the night and the boys are staying at Breas. I am hoping to crash at my sisters, although i havent spoken to her yet!!!!
We have just got our date for our house move. I have 1 month to pack this place up, which is plenty, but daunting all at once. I am looking forward to moving, the new house is lovely and i truly believe i deserve it!! (especially the dishwasher!!!) I think i am going to take the week off work, the kids are on holidays anyways so it will be a good excuse. Then i can take my time and unpack slowly, i cant stand rushing.
I hope you all have a great weekend,
Love Kathryn xxxxxxxxxxxx
To live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan
