To everyone who is struggling with gambling thoughts and urges or to those who have gambled please never ever give up on yourself. I know that if I go and play slots/vlts just once then I am back gambling. I still have thoughts that maybe I could just go for a hour. I envision putting money in the slots and the crazy thing is that when I think of that right now I think it would provide relief, almost like a stress reliever. I know that is not true as it is the addiction mind talking to me, and if I let it continue I know I will give in to it. It tells me that I have to be aware to get my thoughts on something else. I am dealing with a stressful day (friend’s daughter’s funeral or as she wanted a Celebration of Live), so I just want to run away and gamble. I know that it is not the answer. I am acknowledging that it will be a challenging day, but I will not use it as an excuse to gamble. Just for today I will not gamble.One day at a time my sweet lord…
