"I didn’t see the slip coming!"
You wrote that twice R2C!
Others have said the same thing…."I didn’t see it coming!"………….
I have to challenge you to really think about that statement R2C! I used to fool myself into be***ving I just blinked my eyes and "found myself"sitting behind a slot machine with five hundred euro missing from my purse.
That was never the reality of what happened.
Every time I gamble(d), my episode began with a thought. Just one thought ! "Today, if I gamble, I will double my money" or " I’m free today, I have "spare" money so I’ll "treat" myself to a fun day in the casino.
Those thought are always flawed.
When I chose to dwell on them, I begin to plan! A CG always ***** a PLAN.
Line up your ammunition i.e. cash.
Set time aside.
Think of an excuse ( usually a ***) to cover your tracks. (I usually meet an invisible friend)
I then need to travel a certain distance, maybe an hour. I need to quash any counter thoughts,i.e. (If I gamble I might lose" or even " Cgs never win", so as not to shatter my illusion.
Only when I have the scheme developed to the finest detail do I set off to put my plan into action.
My gambling trips are always well planned even if I manage to block out that plan from my conscious mind until the game is over. CGs are good at that!
I know now that having admitted to being in full control of every gambling trip I ever made, I can never again call it a "slip", nor can I say " I didn’t see it coming!"
Just something to reflect on when you are nursing your wounds! Its the best time to see things cleary R2C!
Suffering brings us to our senses.
Bundoran has sad memories for me too. Reminds me that I had a problem with gambling for even longer than I realised! Reading about it gave me quite a jolt. Too difficult a memory to dwell on because it involved a very young child!
GAMBLING DESTROYS LIVES!
