WTG R2c on your gamble free time. Also thank you for telling Vera about the counseling as I am sure that it will be a help to her. Vera has been such a help to so many of us on this site that it is wonderful to see her getting some support!!!! Your post about cgs changing their minds a lot does make sense to me. I some***** think the reason I gambled was money as it would have been such a help to me, then other ***** I was running away from my emotions and not dealing with things, then other ***** I wanted some fun and excitement in my life. It did not matter the reason that I gambled the one thing that never changed was losing money, chasing money and walking out with no money. The number of ***** I prayed to God to let me get my money back. I finally accepted that I was never getting my money back, it was there money now. I hated how I felt after I lost money.. the feeling of self loathing, hating myself. Only another cg can know the feeling of hate towards ourselves because of how we had **** to those we loved. How our gambling was all we could think about. It was all about being able to escape to gamble. It sounds sad when our sane mind is there, but when the addiction mind is working we are not thinking clearly. We have to continue to take it ODAAT as that is the only way we can achieve a gamble free life. Keep going R2c you are doing awesome!!!!One day at a time my sweet lord…
