thanks RG and Sherry. Day 72 enjoying the bank holiday weekend im trying to stay in the middle no dirty big false highs or dramatic lows that make me think i need to gamble to escape my life. have enjoyed the world snooker championships this last 2 weeks and great not to be betting on who will pot the first ball of the frame etc etc madness some of the bets i placed when chasing my losses. so its been great being able to watch sport for sports sake. i say adaat a lot because to be honest i take nothing for granted with this disgusting dis ease nothing and to be honest i take nothing for granted in life. its nice to be over 10 weeks adaat in a month or2 i might have a bit of extra money so that will be new challenges for me protecting the money and myself because i hate being financially insecure i know the experts say this disease isnt about money and i know deep down it isnt but there is ***** i think it is kinda about money and maybe thats why ive been a repeat slipper over the years or maybe its because i cant admit defeat when im chasing or i cant deal with rejection or maybe i just loved gambling so much, who knows and who cares. iv noticed cgs change their minds a lot me included its funny some***** how we change our minds a lot. I feel ok today and thats all that matters!
