Hi Mate
Good to hear from you. I hoped you would come back. I can feel a strength in you, in your writing. You have been extremely brave just in making it back here. Its something you couldnt have done years ago. You will still have your dark days at this time, it’s a case of riding the storm – keep telling yourself my friend that although that day is hard, you are working towards making yourself better – the longer you abstain, the easier you are making things on yourself.
This will be small comfort now, but if you can get over the immediate crisis you’ll be surprised how the finances start to level off after a time. That’s not to say there aren’t consequences to our actions, but they become more manageable when the money leak stops.
Keep posting when you need to and keep working hard – 5 days is great work and you can build on this. Stay focused my friend & post here as much or as little as you need to.
I very much hope you can be here in 5 years time too, this Forum ***** intelligent, sincere people like your
good self.
I know you will have no money, but next time you get any, put the bloody heating on and buy a lovely warm soup and some thick bread and just savour it. Watch an old movie on the TV and I guarantee it will make you feel better if only for a few hours. Live in the present ONLY for now and forget all the ****** mistakes we’ve both made.
You’ll never walk alone !