The thoughts of gambling are becoming less again thank God im trying to just take it adaat looking forward to the big rugby match today and then a big soccer match on tuesday night. And then theres another big soccer match on wednesday nice to have we things to look forward to. My glass is usually half full but im just still licking my wounds a we bit from my last bet it wasnt a big amount but it was a big amount when it was most of the available cash you have to your name. But i supposei was dejected because i cant trust myself. I can go months and months bet free and can save a good bit and then bang lose a thousand or two in a few hours and then the same thing happens again and again. I do try very hard most of the time but i know how sneaky this dis ease is if i give my recovery 99% i will eventually gamble because thats just the way it is for me. So i need a plan have to become orgainsed limit want available money i carry at all ***** i dont want todo this but i have no choice and thats ok im more than happy to do this. I was told by a very wise man God rest him who was off gambling over 15 years when he **** that this disease can kill you but it will torture you first and its so true i have to take action now adaat. The machines in the bookies in the U.K are making on average 1k a week each the bookies never had it so easy and no risk whatsoever. Only 2 % of gamblers make a profit its time i realised im in the worst 2% of cgs. Talks cheap and im reluctant to say im going to do this and im going to do that because iv had so many false dawns but i know i need to be a we bit more orgainsed and have a plan if i have to be regimental with my money thenso be it because i can no longer just go out and about with mayb e a thousand in my cash card and hope for the best that i wont end up in the bookies.
So just 4 today i will have a plan
