Thanks Running Girl, p, Carole and Stan for posting on my thread. I’ve been MIA…and the a stands for ‘action’ as in gambling. I gambled a few ***** in July and each time I lost progressively more. Mom has finally made a choice, along with me, to stop wasting our money at a casino. We’ve promised each other that we won’t gamble until the new casino is built next year…that’s all we can work on for now. Instead of depositing his share of our bills into our joint house account, my husband came home with cash. I asked him to please not give me cash anymore but he handed me cash anyway saying he didn’t have a deposit slip. He doesn’t need a deposit slip! So, I have cash this weekend and am pretty sure I won’t gamble but don’t like the temptation. The past month’s gambling cost too much money that could have been used for so much good but I greedily blew it like money was no object…and it wasn’t while I was in the throes of gambling. The only value money had was getting more so I could keep playing.
I got up and cleaned house from top to bottom, did all the laundry and went to Home Depot and got some more landscaping supplies and went to work outside. Now I’m done and tired and the thoughts of gambling are here…but the day is winding down and I should relax and enjoy my clean house. The dogs aren’t happy though since I won’t let them in.
I can’t do much more outside because the cement work isn’t done and won’t be done until September. That’s more money to come up with but it’s money well spent. I’ve spent a good part of my adult life regretting that I gambled, wishing I had the money back and promising to never gamble again. Here I am starting over again…I’m not complaining because life is so much more comfortable when I don’t gamble–even if it’s just for today. I’m just thankful that there is always support here when it’s our first day back…again and again.
