Having so much cash available made today tough. Funny how knowing cash is in the next room that the gambling urges pop up…but I kept busy and reminded myself that my husband’s uncle would see me if I went to the casino. Met my husband for lunch at 2:00 and then went to Home Depot to price primer and look around. There is so much to look at, so much I would like to buy, but I need to see what our cement work will cost before I buy anything else. Fed the bottle calf and then we picked up an order for dinner.
I put the $900 for the painter in an ******** and sealed it shut. I’m going to have him meet us tomorrow so we can show him where the water valve is and then I’m going to hand over the cash. I just can not have cash in the house. It’s a trigger. I’m sure ***** appreciate being paid in advance. Money is already tight right now and to waste any of it at the casino would be insane. I am so scared to go back in debt! But the insane thought of making a little money keeps popping up in my mind. The sooner I get rid of this extra money the better.
