Thanks Uncontrolled, Running Girl, Vera and Carole for taking time to offer help in my recovery. Uncontrolled and RG, you are both right about enjoying the time left with my mom. I’m going to talk to her today without being irritable and on edge. She has a very active life (much more than I do) where she plays bunko, pinochle, has Bible study and lunch on Thursdays with the girls. Some of their pinochle tournaments last until the wee hours of the morning. She’ll turn 77 in a couple of months and looks about 10 years younger. She has a large group of wonderful lady friends and a boyfriend that adores her…most of the time. Anyway, I took a long look at myself and am trying to be a better person towards my mom and my co-workers…not matter how irritated I get. lol
Carole, your country home sounds amazing. I can only hope mine will be as relaxing and enjoyable. I am already picturing the lawn chairs lined up towards the clear northern sky. I’m looking foward to having my family spend time and feeling like they are pampered and loved and want to keep coming back. We’ve lived in a 1-bedroom house for too many years…guess that’s the price we paid as a compulsive gambler so now it’s time to move onto a better life.
Vera, there is no choice (or money) to gamble this weekend! I do not have any cash or access to cash just in case I get a crazy thought and I think not being able to get money to gamble helps keep the thoughts and urges away. I also have another insurance to keep me out of the casino. My husband’s uncle just started working there again. He used to work there and I remember walking out of the casino in the early morning hours and he acted so surprised to see me. I was very embarrassed and stayed away for a long time. Well, he’s back and I wouldn’t want to risk him seeing me again. My gambling addiction isn’t known to many people and I sure don’t want my husband’s family thinking any worse of me!
Thanks for your prayers. I’m sending them back to you as well for a gamble free weekend.
