Originally posted by markf
That is how long it has been since my last bet! …
… I had lsot the battle of a 15 year addiction and finally admitted defeat …
Good afternoon Mark,
"2 years, 2 weeks and 2 days " is something to be proud of and something where ackolagement is worthy. Well done! And well done also on your closing sentence. "I will continue to remember and focus on my positive future without gambling.", as a positive follow up to your this topic title. Proclaiming a desire and need for continuous work is the first step in reaching 2,2, 3 and all the following milestones.
Seeing your statement about admitting defeat is a reminded to me that I too had to surrender to the addiction and admit defeat for me to have any hope in recovery and a better life; it is working for me also, and for about the same amount of time.
When I see someone that has not posted for a while, or read the lines, "I have not been on here for a while", I look back at their posting history to try and see a pattern that may help me in my recovery also, because most of the time the return is for reason other than telling of a gambling free life,i t is to tell how they relapsed and made things worst for themselves. However your story is a positive and refreshing gift to all, and one that you can problem use yourself in regards to reading post. You past views on reading and posting can now be influenced by some good news.
In your case, while my reviewing your past participation here was not need to remind me of you, it did bring to light that you have not been as far out of contact with us s you think. You have steadily posted about different views and of different milestones in your recovery, and your life; it has only been a month or so between those and your recent post where there has been no word from you. You have been an ongoing help to others, and apparently yourself as well. In fact it would be good for all to read your past post (Click to list all topics containing posts by markf), and to know that we can overcome and learn to live an enjoy life.
One of your topics concerning getting through the early days ignited my thinking and allowed be to be more mindful of the days the followed the early ones. And your speaking now about the distress felt when reading about relapses, tells of feelings most of us have in coming here often or on a daily bases; but the subtle empathy you show when expressing these feelings, outshines your thought of being away for awhile, and seeing the pain that fellow gamblers share in someones struggles can be a challenge for them to stay gambling free, to be able to tell about their years, months, and days.
Keep coming back as often as possible, keep participating so that other can benefit from your experiences, and hour warnings. In closing I hope that all is going well with you and Evie, and that you can still be a father to her, not just someone lost in the grips of this addiction.
Again, Well done.
God’s speed. Stay strong. Keep posting, keep taking action.LarryThanks to my Higher Power, My 3G’s – God, GA, and GT, "Day Two Is Another Day Behind" and with the help from all , I will continue to remain gambling free.