Rayman after many years I finally stopped and have stayed stopped!
First advice I wud give is get real live help now! Online we help each other feel less bad abour our slips! U need to draft in soMeone who loves u and get them to control ur money! Yes it is difficult to admit that u have a weakness but evenrtually this will destroy u if u don’t control it!
A little pain and embarressment now will prevent years if hell and possible eventual ruin!
I used online support for years and had no success !
U are intelligent and wise enough to withstand a small storM now! If u have parents draft them in to help. U cud buy them a very holiday xmas if u do and still have More money left than if u struggle alone!
Do it now! Get real help!! The sooner u do the sooner this nitemare stops!!