Dear diary,
I have used wrongdoing many times since young and escape immediate punishment, gambling was just one such habit. I have actually become confuse and lost as a result with more wrongdoings.
Did I think that I can escape punishment and its consequences with my gambling?
I have tried to manipulate circumstances and other people to get what I want so that I could gamble.
Did I use God’s Grace as an excuse to escape punishment and its consequences with more gambling?
God’s promise of faithfulness to Israel despite their lack of faithfulness:
Psalm 89:30-35
“Should his descendants desert my law, and not keep to my rulings, should they violate my statues, and not observe my commandments, then I SHALL PUNISH THEIR OFFENCES WITH THE ROD, THEIR GUILT WITH THE WHIP, but I shall never withdraw from him my faithful love, I shall not belie my constancy, I shall not violate my covenant, I shall not withdraw the word once spoken. I have sworn my holiness, once and for all, never will I break faith with David.”
Psalm 51:3-7:
3 For I am well aware of my offences, my sin is constantly in mind. 4 Against you, you alone, I have sinned, I have done what you see to be wrong..” and Paul quotes this part of verse 4, “that you may show your saving justice when you pass sentence, and your victory may appear when you give judgment, 5 remember, I was born guilty, a sinner from the moment of conception. 6 But you delight in sincerity of heart, and in secret you teach me wisdom. 7 Purify me with hyssop till I am clean, wash me till I am whiter than snow.” Psalm 51:1-7, New Jerusalem (51:3-10 NAB, 50:3-10