Just did another long post which has disappeared. How frustrating is that? If at all possible I would like to avoid going bankrupt as it ends my career as well. I wonder if something major is wrong and that I would do in that case. My son has also said that he would decorate my home. He lives in one room in his paternal grandmothers house. It isn’t in the best of shape that house hence needing my flat. This brings me to having to make a decision I have long put off and not faced. Pete, who has helped me all this year whilst in and out of action, I will need to ask him to leave. Part of my gambling was caused by thee ending of our relationship 6 years ago. A lack of emotional connection and intimacy destroyed me as it has always been important. I mean not even a hug, just practical support as and when needed. This has the capability to,really do my head in but I have given this to my higher power, Jesus Christ to work things out for the greater good,of all concerned. Off to GA shortly. Have done Step One written work on powerlessness and attempts to gain control.
