Kin, I hope you are not being too hard on yourself?
It is good to be aware of our faults and failings, but I don’t think God wants us to torture ourselves for our past mistakes.
When He forgives , He forgets.
We tend to see God in Human terms.
He sees your efforts and your positive traits.
“All things work together for good for those who love God!” Rom. 8:28
Forgive yourself and focus on today.
