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I don’t experience such strong internal trigger every week. The good news is that this one just pass, the next one will not come so soon.

When it does come, the strongest craving and urges come in waves. If the first wave did not knock me down, the second one will try again, like a wave hitting the wall, follow by the next one. I would either become weaker with each wave and relapse or I would remain calm in the center of the storm until the wave dies.

I just check my thought, feeling and emotion. My thought was the same, gambling thought come and go in the head, but it did not trouble me like last night..

It does not affect my feeling and emotion. There was no craving urge to gamble or take alcohol tonight.