Don’t listen to the suicidal voices in your head. If you are considering this as a way out of your problems – think about what state this will leave your wife and children in. Do they deserve to grow up without a father.
If you are planning to do something like this please contact these helplines NOW: Lagos suicide hotlines, by the Lagos State Government: 08058820777 and 09030000741
– “through which residents can ask questions, make inquiries and seek help from professionals early enough to allow for appropriate intervention.”
As for your debt – firstly don’t add to it. You have said nothing about stopping gambling – you need to address this so that any money you get goes to paying off your debts and not to increase them.
Pay your necessary debts first. Things you need to pay so that you don’t lose your home, services (electricity) etc. Any other debts which are left – talk to the people you owe. Explain that you will pay a little each month (or whenever you get paid) until it is resolved. They would prefer to get some money from you rather than none at all. See if they will lessen interest payments or suspend it until you are in a better place. Is there a way of increasing your earnings?
Speak to someone you trust about your situation, don’t keep it all to yourself. Two heads are better than one and someone else may see a way through that is not clear to you. Above all else – don’t see suicide as a way out – it is a permanent thing and your problems, difficult as they may seem at the moment are only temporary. I wish you well.