[Jrb]

Well unfortunately most comments above are correct and I knew/know them to be before continuing my stupid behaviour. Of course if it was logical we would not have the problems. My issue/trigger this month was not having enought to get through the month. So i bet and won – and stopped posting as later that evening I lost all i won and enough that i can not pay my rent and my sister money I promised. So I am posting this as it is easy to give up communication when u screw up and I need to resolve my issues. I will be in a group at some stage.