Haven’t used my 300. I can accept the chance that I don’t gamble again and just pay off my debt. Applied for a loan to pay my credit cards – if I get it then all fine – I’ll spend the next 2 years paying it off. I’ve done this before and spent 6 years paying off a 10k loan. Funnily I finished paying this about the same time I started playing big again.
If I don’t get it I’m screwed and can’t see any option but to gamble what little I’ve got to get some of it back…
More reasons I can’t tell my wife. I live in Hong Kong. Tonight we are going to the races with some friends. Next weekend we’re off to Macau for the weekend. This summer we have a big holiday planned in the States – including 5 days in Vegas. If I admit to my problem then all of that is off. My wife’s dream holiday that we’ve been gradually paying off for about a year is screwed. A large part of our social life is gone. Ahhh…
I’m starting to admit that I can’t control myself as well. I used to think that my probel was just that I couldn’t control it – my method was sound, I only lost when I stopped following my rules, usually coinciding with getting drunk. I’m starting to take seriously the idea that actually I can’t stick to my method whatever state I’m in. This is quite depressing.