Liz, when I read your post I could relate to so much of it. Once I stopped playing machines at the Casino I went on a retail therapy kick… It took me a little while to realize that I can’t do that, well I could, but I would be in debt… When I was gambling I had no respect or whatever we want to call it for money. I pushed money in the machines as if it had no value. I stopped doing that and had a while with retail therapy. I then started thinking that we were retiring and I have done a complete turn-a-round. I now focus on the savings and seeing it grow. I don’t just go out and think I can buy whatever I want. I am starting shop in different stores and look for sales. I have changed in regards to thinking of the value of money. I also am shopping around and looking at all the options for a new phone. I think knowing we will have a limited budget brings a reality to things, and I have to say a fear about how much it will cost us to live. Although we have no mortgage on our home or loans. I worry about it, but I have to think if I need extra money I can go out and get a part-time job without the stress of my current position.
In regards to the Church and volunteering do something for you Liz. I think that might help you find new friends and a life that is fulfilling to you. I think that is something that we all need.
