Dear Maverick
Recovery for me have turn from a tough experience into an enjoyable one after many years, it did not happen on my first day, it happen only after I learn my lessons and “change”.
I was a perfectionist and was very hard on myself when things go wrong. Instead of focusing all my energy on starting all over again a new, I wasted a lot of time and unnecessary pain and suffering dwelling on what went wrong and why it has been so hard to get back on the right track.
Brother, you are on the right track in recovery, everything changes for me when I made changes to my unrealistic expectation, expecting life and recovery to be perfect was one of them…it was one of the main reason why I cannot move on, I ended up staying down for a long time… look at a baby learning how to walk, when the baby fall, the baby immediately get up and try again, again and again, did the baby learn to walk on the very first attempt? How did the baby succeed?
Yes it is hard to get back on the right track, no denial about that, the first step was always the toughest, it is the same for everyone. It take up the most energy. It was the hardest in the beginning, an air plane burn the most fuel when it was taking off, after that it will be plain sailing, it will get easier along the way.
Keep it simple, take one baby step at a time, do the next right thing, when all else fail follow direction, one day at a time…these are useful slogans during difficult time.
I wish you well.
Many blessings
Kin
