I answer all the 4 questions and wrote it down this week and it kept me strong and safe for a few days but I can feel that it is fading now…
I am slipping into the old ways where I can remember only these 2 questions about what can gambling do for me? and what is the disadvantages of stopping gambling?
I have forgotten completely about what can gambling do to me? and what is the advantages of stopping gambling?
Recovery can be likened to walking up a down escalator. Every child knows the trick to walking up one is to climb faster than the escalator is pulling you back. You could climb so far up the escalator, but the moment your climbing effort is less than the downward pull of the escalator, you begin moving back towards that bottom. That’s what relapse is like.
Relapse is a process, not an event. The last thing that happens in a relapse process is gambling. Depending on the effort you made to progress up the escalator of recovery, your relapse process could take a longer time to happen.
This can be a message of hope and not hopelessness. If your relapse process takes months or years to lead you back to active gambling, then you have months or even years to recognize the problem and prevent it from getting any worse.
I feel lazy and tired, but have gratitude contentment today.