ok, ending now. another terrible loss, but to be expected…
Instaling the K9 webprotection software tomorrow. So much about doing it on my own “the easy way”. I’m such an idiot. I’m glad I don’t know any of you in person. I’d be even more ashamed. I know no one’s judging me here, but still… i’m such a fucking asshole, i’m disgusted by my own self.
And I need to go into my wife and ask her to give me some money that we have in her account so I can pay my debts now. Do I hate myself! I don’t even know how it started. I was more than confident last couple of days. It was like something had “clicked” in my brain and I was no longer addicted. HAHA. How foolish. What was I thinking?
The good news is I’m going to sleep now and I won’t have to face any of my problems for another 6-7 hours. Am I pathetic?!!