I owe you a big apology,
I didn’t realise there was a 2nd page to your thread.
Here I was thinking all was well (of sorts), and there I was sprouting about bloody shopping of all things!!!!!
I’m sorry you are feeling so crappy!!!!!
I’m not sure if you are mid life crissising, just going through a bad patch, or clinically depressed. (or none of those!!)
Have you thought about talking to a professional? Someone who can see things from a different perspective, not to mention you being able to get all these feelings out?
You sound to me like a coke bottle that has been shaken and shaken and is ready to explode!!!!!!!
What can you change right now that could ease some pressure?
Do you and your wife talk? Really talk? Maybe she is feeling your tension and is backing away? (I’m just throwing ideas out here)
Kids, well I’m not sure how old they are but I know mine. I hardly see them these days. My rule is that we eat dinner (tea) together every night we can. They are 18 and 13 yo boys, which I find harder because I have absolutely no idea what is going on in their heads!!! That’s just growing up I guess, they find a bit of independence and don’t need us old parents so much anymore!!!
I have had these moments with my husband, to be honest, I have had moments of pure hate for not a lot of reasons. Hormonal? Maybe! We don’t speak for days on end, or if we do its very minimal. It always passes.
I’m not sure I have met anyone who truly loves their job. Lets face it, would anyone work if we didn’t need to pay the bills? I know my answer!!!!
I lost myself when I gambled. It took a long long time to find me again, I didn’t like myself at first, I couldn’t remember who I was before the addiction. When I stopped I felt like a part of me had died. In time, the addiction has become a small part of who I am. You’ve stopped for over 42 days Mav, and you said it yourself, you haven’t done that for years. I know things aren’t sitting right with you right now. Just be a bit patient, let this wave pass and see how you come out the other side. You never know, it could be amazing.
Sorry for the rant, but I felt sooo bad when I read your last post!!!!!
At least you don’t have the gambling noose around your neck right now. Just imagine how you would feel going through all this and actively gambling…….that is horror on a plate my friend.
Hope you feel better soon,
Love K xxxxx
