2 months was going well with no gambling. Had a very very stressful month due to ongoing relationship issues and today I gambled. £1500 gone…… I’m so depressed right now. I have enough to cover my minimum payments on my credit cards but I’m basically no further forward. I am due to go away for a few nights as from tonight but now I have this big black cloud over my head. I can’t confide in my partner as my relationship has been abusive and he’s not the most understanding sort. Last time I openened up about gambling he basically said its your problem I’m not helping you. I wasn’t allowed to go to gamblers anon as he said it was ridiculous and I should just stop doing it. If only!!!!! Well how am I going to get out of this mess. There’s no quick fix. On minimum payments I’m looking at probably at least 3 years of being skint.
I’m ashamed. I’m a mother of 6 and instead of buying nice things for my kids or putting it towards their future I’ve squandered thousands on slots. I feel pathetic and useless. Saving grace is that they are well provided for by their father, even if he is an abusive b**t**d and he’s now had to leave the family home because of his aggression. No wonder I don’t confide in him.
Hope you are all well. I’ll keep you all updated.
