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Imagine what is going on in the mind of the person

There are just too many reasons not to sacrifice my interest. If given a choice, it would be natural for me to choose one that is comfortable, selfish and greedy. The falsehood and lies in my head is telling me that it was ok to be disobedient and gamble or take alcohol.

My troubles in the past, were mostly all self inflicted. I got into trouble all the times when I choose to listened to me and be disobedient to God. 

I should not have listen to me and be obedient to God.

I cannot escape the wrath, punishment and consequences from my bad choices and decisions. The price is too heavy to pay !