Well this is a long story but i will try to make it short.
I gambled on the 20th. I am a fool.
I made the arrangements to go see my friend in the detention center. I went online, did the required forms and somehow I didn’t get on the list to visit. I had spent the night in the state where he was at, my sister drove with me. I had worked that day, picked her up and drove until 7pm. I had a very long and tiring day only to be turned away the next morning. I called my sister, she had waited at the motel, and asked her to be ready to go. I was so hurt and felt so humiliated. I cried most of the drive home and gambled what little I had left in my pocket.
He got released on bail on the following Wednesday and finally found the time to see me tonight. See it was important to me to see and support him but somehow someway I was not important enough to see until tonight. He was suppose to be here at 7, showed at 9:30.
He hurt my feelings when he was here and I threw him out.
I can’t do this anymore. I can’t gamble over him. I can’t let myself be the least and last in any ones life anymore. I’m sad-he was sad when he left telling me he always felt safe with me and that he could come to me for advice. I treated him like a king-I would have liked that too-whats not to like?
I’m just so tired of being hurt-and I hate hurting anyone-even him.
bettie
