Thanks Sara, idi and laura. I appreciate your posts.
I was massively triggered by a conversation with my son on Monday who said that I will be cured when I can gamble responsibly. He is playing very high stake poker games and is entering a million live tournament shortly. This conversation bothered me a lot.
Today I resigned the job. The five hours travel was taking its toll. I have had 3 ocular migraines in a week with dyslexic after effect when I had none for a year. I did not like the work or the people who were unhelpful and unsupportive, and life is way too short. I did the right responsible thing and emailed them first thing. Luckily it was mutual and I don’t have to work my notice. Needless to say I am devastated by this but accept it. I have spen 20 quid on computer games but not gambled. I feel,exceptionally drained. Pete isn’t speaking to me now and I feel somewhat bereft.
