Hi John, I asked Charles in the group “why me” . He replied ” why not you ?”. I think it’s all part of our journey to becoming who we are meant to be! A fine metal doesn’t leave the ground as a beautiful ornament. It has to melted and hammered in order to become a thing of beauty! I see the gambling years as similar.. Life giving me a good battering so I can become much better. So yes it’s really hard right now but Things will get better!
