Well done mate, your doing good. My mindset is in a similar place. I had a winning bet to pick up from a shop and I postponed it for today as to begin with I felt sick that I had to re enter this establishment. And nervous that I wouldn’t have been able to pick up my winnings and leave. Well I created a safety net for myself, chose a shop which I could park outside near town centre on double yellows. Parked up ran inside and all I could think about was don’t get caught on the double yellows (no parking) lol. Anyway I don’t think I needed the safety net, it was actually quite empowering just picking up the loot and leaving. Wasnt even an ounce of temptation. Got back in the car went straight into town and filled my cupboards full of food and bought some much needed things for the house. I bought healthy stuff of course as I now need a healthy body to help keep a healthy mind. My next mission is how quickly I can save back my losses, im currently giving my parents whom I see everyday at least £10 a day to keep hold of until I reach my Birthday in September. By that time I’d have easily saved my recent losses back and then go on holiday for 2 weeks a new person and over 6 months gamble free. I know my mentality tho, I’ve give myself 200 days to recover my losses @ £10 a day. I will be pulling out all the stops to do it under 100 days. It’s my new challenge, something to aim for, a reason to change, a new focus. I know I can only achieve this goal if I stay gamble free. Haven’t knocked back a single hours overtime since Wednesday night, I won’t allow myself an easy time of it. It’s my punishment for being a fool. Last time it was like I’d been jailed for 12 years, I thought I’d done my time but for re offending I’ve sentenced myself to a further 7 months, I might be lucky and get out around 3 months for good behaviour. I’m actually really enjoying my “new life”. I think it’s making me a better person. I’m spending more time with friends. I just hadn’t realised how time consuming my gambling had become. How’s your Sunday going? Keep safe and gamble free mate.
