Thank you Kathryn- I have never heard that before – HALT. I like that – I am going to make it my screen saver on my phone .
I really need help with something . I have just researched GA again. I found one which sensibly posted lots of of GA materials like “just for today” – I have never seen any materials before from GA. Some of it made me chuckle cos instead following the advice to not criticise, my mind went straight to think about the members I know who are not following that advice – which was exactly what I was not meant to do !! I am most unkind!
I need help because there is a meeting I can attend soon but my mind is going in two directions.
One part of my brain sees hope , freedom , sunshine and a really good life if I just drag myself to GA.
The other part sees humiliation , shame , embarrassment and the whole world knowing . I can’t bring my self to trust the confidentiality of GA .
One part of my mind is really hopeful – the other is really frightened.
One part wants to attend a local meeting because it is achievable- the other part of me wants to do a hundred and fifty mile round trip to attend where I’m not known (which usually means I will be too tired for the drive after work).
I have struggled for so many years with this- there is a phone number you can ring – I’m even really scared to ring that number . I have no idea who will answer.
I have no idea why it is such a big deal for me . I guess it’s that I don’t really trust other people – I’m not sure even if I went that I would be able to open up- ever.
I have a tiny bit of hope that I will be writing that I went and yet I know I won’t be writing that.