Hey guys. Been a bit. I haven’t gambled since December 31,2018. That makes it around 70 days g free. Until today. I really wanted to gamble, badly. I grabbed 1000 and headed to the casino, I knew In my head I shouldn’t go, but I drove there anyways, even though I am self banned. I knew they had my license plate # so I was going to park at the lot next door and walk over, it’s almost like I wanted to get stopped at the door because I parked in the casino lot. I walked up to the door and security approached me right away, saying I can’t come in. Have 8 more months left of my 5 year ban. It felt good in a sense because I still have the 1000$ and it saved me fro the painful days of losing thousands… I could have thanked the security for doing me a favour. Went out for some dinnner with some friends after … continuing my gamble free journey, man it’s hard sometimes .. miss those big wins..:( 🙁 but I j is there is no winner in a compulsive gambler.. and I’m really happy I didn’t start the evil cycle all over again… hope everyone is doing well. Keep fighting those demons.
