Dear diary
Grateful to be clean today. Some days are easier some days are not but everyday matter, they all add up one day at a time.
Lately, I did not look after myself in the best way. I was putting myself at great risk. This is a very hot period in Singapore now, and I can be very badly affected by the heat.
I work from 7 pm to 7 am, many times after work I did not go to sleep straight away, I like to continue to stay up to entertain myself, I ended up making myself mentally exhausted and tired.
My body feel very stress by the heat and my mind become mentally very weak from the lack of sleep. It is not without a good reason I get triggered as a result and started to have persistent light gambling thoughts.
This was what happen to me in the last 2 days but the solution to this problem was a real simple one, it require me to be willing to do it with discipline, it’s just something lacking in me, I just woke up after a 12 hours’ sleep and it does wonder to me.
The gambling thought goes away and life return to normal, physically and mentally is not a struggle anymore now.
Thank God