due to the emotional state, I found myself in, and even so, I try to refrain from details as much as possible, so that probably explains why the causation of the problem was a bit confusing.
Nevertheless, you made a very meaningful comment about my post, Steev. Thank you. Worrying is a weird thing. In fact, so are many emotions. Realizing that nothing good from worrying will come at this point, I still found it hard to let go of it, and so I look to escape it somehow. Thankfully I didn’t escape by gambling but instead opted to meet my girlfriend at our local ice cream shop. We talked about the whole situation and eventually, I managed to wrap my head around the fact that, it is what it is. The outcomes I was worrying about may not necessarily happen, and if it does, there are several options for me to take in order for me to continue my master’s degree at the same university. And I did come to terms with the fact that I should accept a lower grade as long as I pass the exam because I’m desperate for a clean slate, which I will get when I’m studying my masters (my bachelor have been a long grind due to gambling).
I’m a bit worried about my mindfulness of the situation. Looking back and evaluating my thoughts and responses to this ‘predicament’ I wasn’t being mindful of my thoughts. I feel it was more luck than anything that I chose the healthy action of eating ice cream with my girlfriend as an escape of this worrying. For all I know, I could have been unlucky and chosen the unhealthy action of old and bad behavioral patterns which leads to gambling or just the straight route of gambling. And so, I wish I had more awareness in the situation because these types of situations are likely to happen again.
– Chris