Romans 2:4
Paul is saying, “If you think that you can get away with sin because God is kind, tolerant, and patient, you’re greatly mistaken! His kindness should lead you to repentance, not to self-righteous complacency.
Romans 2:5
You are storing up wrath for yourself because of your stubbornness and your heart that refuses to change. God’s just judgment will be revealed on the day of wrath.
The self-righteous person picks parts of the Bible that he likes and pride himself on keeping those parts.
Matt. 23:28
“In the same way, outwardly you appear righteous to men, but inwardly you are full of hypocrisy and lawlessness.”
Dear diary,
This was how I justify myself and blame my situations. I am so sorry.
How I justify myself
I am not using borrowed money to gamble. If I lost the bet, I think it is alright.
This gamble is a good way to make fast money, I will not gamble everything I have, I will not be greedy. I still think that it is ok and I am right. If I lost the bet, it is alright. I feel that I can afford the lost when I really cannot.
If I follow God’s will, I shall not gamble but my self-will think otherwise, I feel that I am right to go ahead to gamble.
This gamble is an opportunity I cannot miss. Law of probability is on my side. I feel that my chances are high. My false confident never feel that the chances of a loss are high here. I still think that I am right. If I lost the bet, I think it is alright, I can afford it when I really cannot.
I will not lose myself and go out of control. I can stop if things are not going well. I want to go ahead to do this gamble.
How I blame my situation
I am doing this because I need the money to service my loan and bills, increase my saving, renovate my place.
How my lies hurt my recovery
Engaging in games of chance, and gambling that depend on luck erodes my trust in God.
When I lost my faith and trust in God, my Higher Power and the 12 steps recovery program, who else am I choosing to trust ? it will be me, I , myself.
Everyone here knows when I am in the driver seat, I will get into troubles, sometime sooner sometime later.