Murr, I really can empathize. I remember several nightmares along the way. I have some very similar stories. Years ago chasing a 300.00 loss and in the course of a few days lost close to what you did. I know how it feels to lose control and wonder “how the hell did that just happened” I know the shame and embarrassment that comes after.. I think we all do on some level or another. Try and remember you can’t go back in time, but you can try not to let it happen again. Our brains have been hi- jacked by this addiction so we have to work as hard on not gambling as we do chasing. You will feel better. It’s just going to take some time. Concentrate on what you do have vs what you lost. Think about what life will be like in a month, two, three without gambling. It can only get better… I am 18 years or so older than you and I wish I could of crushed this addiction when I was only 30… Again the only thing you have to do is get through today try and find the good in it.
