Murr! I am so sorry that this flipping addiction took hold of you. I agree with Steve. You are not pathetic. You are far from it. This flipping addiction is pathetic. We have to figure out a way to stay in front of it. You were doing good. 2 months is a great achievement. Things will get better. They always do. After my last relapse a friend of mine who is a drug addict said “it’s not your fault” her therapist told her even when we do not want to do it (gamble) our addicted brains tell us we do. I agree with that because I have found myself smack dab in the middle of a chase when I had no intentions in the first place. That goes back to staying ahead of our addiction. I am still trying to work on making it almost impossible to get my hands on extra cash so when and if the urge comes either I have no money or the damage is less. I hope you can do the same. Prayers for you my friend. I know it’s never easy but pick yourself up and keep going. We can and will live a better life.
