[LostitallAgain]

i got paid few days early. It suprised me and I went straight to the gambling site. I spent 400 pounds but last minute I won 365 so I withdrew that. So it’s only a loss of 35 pounds this time. Which is not great but not the end the world.

I think I need to adress why I gambled. And that was because I felt really low in mood at the time. Gambling gets me excited, I love the thrill that it gives me. Just like the thrill self harming gave me. I feel like I’m in a mess il never get out of. I couldn’t bare to buy a lock to put on it permantly but I have locked myself out the gambling site for 4 weeks.